A party all for me......

So today I have been having a party just for me. It has been quite the pity party, I'd say. The only thing missing (so far) have been the waterworks. I have felt so ridiculously sorry for myself today for the most random reason. It occurred to me this morning that for the last half of a year (gasp!) I have been doing the same thing EVERY 3 hours (Jarom requires food every now and then.....). No vacation, no holidays, no paid time off, no nothing! For some reason, it just struck me how hard it can be sometimes to be a mom, and in essence lose yourself. Ben works 2 jobs, and what does Amanda do? Well, I changed Jarom's clothes about 5 times today, who knows how many poopy diapers, took Dallin swimming, and made dinner (woo-hoo). Not exactly life altering stuff. Ben offered to take the kiddos for a couple hours so I could go do something, but I couldn't think of ONE DUMB THING that I wanted to do. NOT ONE! And that got me pitying myself even more......anyway, bedtime finally came for Dallin, and after the whole bedtime routine I was about to leave his room, and he asked me to stop and come back. He said he had a question for me, so I sat down on the edge of his bed, and he just came over and gave me a big hug. And you know what? There is NOT ONE THING I would have rather been doing than getting that hug just then. NOT ONE! How did he know that I needed that hug to show me that it isn't so bad to lose yourself in the (constant) service of others. I am glad I didn't have anywhere to go tonight. I would have missed out on an unbelievable hug that I was happy to return right back to the kid, and if that isn't life altering stuff, I don't know what is.